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“Living Between Hope and Peace”
A sermon by Rev. Elder Nancy Wilson
World AIDS Day, December 1st, comes early in the Christian season of Advent. For many MCC churches, it has come to be an integral part of that “penitential” season of reflection, preparation, tradition, memory, and going deeper spiritually. Living with HIV/AIDS, being the Church with AIDS has made all of the gifts and disciplines of Advent a necessity.
This year I noticed that World AIDS Day comes between the first two Sundays in Advent, whose key words/concepts are “Hope” and “Peace.”
What does it mean to live between and balance Hope and Peace?
In the Advent lectionary readings for the first Sunday, the Psalmist says, “No one who hopes in your will ever be put to shame!” (Ps. 25:3a). I cannot read that verse without feeling, deep in my spirit, that it was intended, in a truly mystical sense, for MCC and for those with HIV/AIDS. With all the shame heaped upon our communities, for decades or for centuries, we know what it means to hope in a God who is not ashamed of us, and who will not allow us to be “put to shame.” Healing and shame may be the beginning of hope, after all.
And, from the “little apocalypse” in Luke 21, we hear the words of eternal hope, “When these things (persecution, trials, struggles) happen, lift up your heads, for your redemption draws near.” These are Jesus’ words that, in themselves, lift us to the hope that transcends every earthly calamity and sorrow. What if the hell we are going through is not the end of the story, but a prelude to resurrection, redemption, vindication?
This is a powerful part of the Jesus story and message.
Hope is revolutionary, especially for those with little of it. To hope is to be discontent with the status quo, to believe that there is a better way, a more just, and righteous way to live. It is to trust that we are not alone, abandoned, or forsaken; and that the God who created the heavens and the earth is also the God of the prophets who railed against the status quo. Prophets who insisted that God’s vision and expectation for human life and community did not include hunger, un-treated disease, injustice, crushing poverty, war, rape, racism, religious intolerance. . .
Hope that, for those who suffer, it will not always be thus: that healing, relief, and comfort will come.
Hope is dangerous, it sparks revolutions and dramatic social change. People who have no hope just accept the status quo, and tune out as best they can. Hope gets underneath the anesthetizing despair that cripples the oppressed. It is not reasonable or rational. It goes beyond the boundaries. It reaches out for allies and co-conspirators to shake the foundations.
World AIDS Day is a testimony to dangerous hope. I have been in this long enough to remember when there was no hope at all, except in God and community. When there were no meds, and, then a bit later, highly toxic meds that did not work for most people. I remember when hope was taking to the streets, screaming at the top of our lungs, touching our dying friends, and letting them touch us, defiantly.
Rev. Steve Pieters was “our” poster boy of hope then, in MCC. He was one of the first MCC clergy to be diagnosed with AIDS in the early 80’s, and later served 10 years on staff as our HIV/AIDS Field Director. My partner, Paula, was the editor of an MCC magazine Journey. Her way to encourage him was to push him to write about his hope in a series of journal-like essays. Steve’s message was expressed in the simple slogan, “God is Greater than AIDS.” He started to write, and his writing touched many around the world.
Hope was contagious, even more contagious than the virus itself. It was what we lived on for many years. It is what people with HIV/AIDS, and their families and friends still need – dangerous hope!
In a time when the Church Universal was colluding with others in a conspiracy of silence, (and it still does, all too often), MCC was loud, brash and out there. Rev. Troy Perry and I had the experience in 1987, before there were protease inhibitors, of wearing our “God is Greater Than AIDS” buttons to the service with Pope John Paul II in South Carolina. We were included with 500 Protestant and Orthodox clergy, who recoiled from us and our buttons in that too small waiting room for hours before the service. We were not ashamed, and they didn’t get that.
Today, a generation of those who survived the initial onslaught of AIDS are experiencing long-term effects from the disease or the medications they take to combat it: premature aging, cognitive issues and other complications. Hope is still needed, every day. Young people still think they are immune, and people who have no hope for life itself are not so concerned about contracting AIDS. Millions are walking around with undiagnosed, untreated HIV - they’ve never been tested.
My partner does school tutoring for a 14 year old immigrant girl, who is beginning to be sexually active - a girl who has never heard of AIDS. How does that youngster get some hope for her life, her future?
On the second Sunday in Advent, we hear the Benedictus, from Luke’s Zechariah, who prophesizes One who will “Guide our feet into the paths of peace.” (Luke 1: 79).
Peace is not just passive non-aggression, or the absence of conflict. True peace, shalom, is a more powerful and nuanced concept. It is about a state of well-being, both individual and collective. It is as big as what can happen between nations, and, as small as “the way we answer the phone.”
Peace is a path, it is a way of being, of relating, in micro and macro realities.
Peace is not denial, it is not pretending that everything is OK when it is not. It is living in a vision of the realm of God, the “peaceable kingdom,” where those who are “natural” enemies become friends, where the things that separate and frustrate us can be overcome. Where forgiveness can be offered and received.
We live in a world of “divide and conquer,” where some people benefit from enmity, and will do all they can do to foster it, to foster fear of and hostility toward those who are different. Difficult economic times, as well, foster an “us and them” mentality, in which we act like we are all on a episode of “Survivor,” forming temporary, fragile alliances and making promises we have no intention of keeping, just to win. In our world, “loving one’s neighbor as oneself” is a radical act of peacemaking, as radical as when Jesus preached and lived it.
Peace is a verb, not a noun. It is a way of being, not a possession. It is a practice. It takes practice.
For me, personally, to practice peace means I have to remember who I am: a beloved child of God. I am safe with the God who created me. And, as I breathe, I must let go of my fear, my desire to control things that I cannot control.
It means being available to be an active partner with God’s intention of “tikkun olam,” repairing the world. To be willing to offer myself in that moment, to God’s purpose. To take risks in order to have healthy relationships – even with those who see themselves as my enemies.
The church must balance it too – on one hand the times when we must push, challenge and agitate; and on the other, the times we must allow peace to embrace us, calm us and assure us.
Years ago, in the midst of many challenges as pastor of MCC Los Angeles and during the worst of the dying from AIDS, in a particularly frantic time after our building had collapsed in the earthquake, a woman in our church died. She was indigent, and had a huge family, who had few resources, but a lot of opinions and needs. They had insisted she be taken to a funeral home that I knew would overcharge and that they could not afford. Sure enough, after three weeks, the family was not able to pay the bill, and our church member was still unburied and her body held hostage at the funeral home. The family made it difficult for me to help, and I was at the end of my rope, at the end of a very long day. Our church receptionist, Lexie, just looked at me, touched my arm and said, gently but firmly, “Pastor, she’s dead, you’re alive, go home.” I obeyed, and owned that sometimes, there is nothing I can do but claim my aliveness and go home in peace. I had peace that evening. I remembered that I was not God, I could not fix everything, not that day.
Hope agitates, while peace grounds us. At times I must agitate out of the hope I have been given: but I never control the results, and must be at peace about the long-term outcome.
Peace is living as if hope is fulfilled, now. In the midst of agitating in hope, we must create space for peace. Today, there are people who have no hope and no peace. For their sake, and for ours, we must find the delicate balance between the two as we live and minister in Jesus’ name to the world “God so loved.”